Would You Let Me Stay?

watercolors by lex millena

Him:  Sorry, I’m going to have to leave a few of my things…

Me:  That’s okay.  After 8 years, you can think of me as a sort of storage unit.

Him:  Believe me, I do.

Me:  Wow.  Thanks.

(pause)

Me:  Hey.

Him:  What?

Me:  Are we doing the right thing here?  Should we be turning our backs on 8 years of a relationship?  Shouldn’t we be fighting harder to preserve this?

Him:  Michael.  We’ve been fighting.  We fought.  And then we stopped fighting.  And we were still together.  And we were unhappy for a long time.

 

Me:  But – what about all those hugs?  There were lots of hugs.  And, now there won’t be any.  And I’ll be all alone here.

Him:  You’ll be fine.

Me:  I wont!  I’ll just be here.  Alone.  With your lazy ghost rattling around the place.  It was hard enough to get you to clean up before you were just a memory.

Him:  Stop it.  You’re making it harder.  We decided-

Me:  GOOD.  It should be hard.  It should be hard to walk away from someone who you made a life with – a LIFE.  That’s what we have here.  We have a life together, and you want to walk away from it.

Him:  This isn’t fair.  You’re the one who broke up with me…  I’m just doing what you asked me to do. 

Me:  But is this the best idea?

Him:  It’s the best idea.  Yes.  We reached a point where we weren’t good for each other.

Me: But I lied.

Him:  What?

Me:  I lied.  You asked me to tell you point blank, that I didn’t love you anymore, and I lied and said ‘I don’t love you anymore.’  I lied.  I do.  I don’t know how to stop.

Him:  What?  Why would you…?

Me:  I felt like I was drowning and I felt like that for a long, long time.  And I felt like the only way to throw myself a life preserver was to do this.

Him:  This is unfair – and I’m getting impatient.  Why should…  We’re doing what’s best for both of us, and you’re not making it easy.

Me:  It. Shouldn’t. Be. Easy.

(pause)

Me:  Will you listen to a song I wrote for you?

(long pause)

Him: (exasperated) Fine…

Him:  That’s really beautiful, but I don’t think it changes anything.

Me:  It’s okay.  I’m probably going to add a bridge in the middle about felching.

Him:  Why?

Me:  Make it funny…

Him:  Is everything a joke?

Me:  It is now.

(long pause)

 Me:  Jerk.

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